A matter of opinion

OWT

Opinions? Who is allowed to have one? On which things it is possible to have an opinion?
Do not say everyone and everything. It’s not a matter of opinion.

There are things where you really can be wrong. It’s a lie that everyone can tell their opinion. I know that science is not perfect and things needs to be questioned, but still.
There are people who want to join the conversation but they do not uncderstand a shit about the subject. They are still happy to share their opinion. It’s just bullshit.
I often end up in disputes where no one really understands what we are arguing about. People claim that I get agitated when someone does not agree with my opinion. Fuck I hate that word! There is nothing wrong in disagreement. The problem is the people who seek some kind of eternal consensus and they do not like to argue. They think that the whole dispute is about disagreement, when it really is about them not understanding what the whole thing is about. Stupid people should not be allowed to speak (other than what is needed to do their work and buy their food),
I was having some different colors on a sheet of paper: yellowm blue, red, green – and I made a mistake to ask what people thought about the shades – if they were too vivid etc. One guy said “I’m a bit color blind, but my opinion that is not yellow, it is brown”. What the fuck? Did I ask his OPINION on that?? No!

I asked 10 other guys what color they think it is and they all said it’s yellow. There must be a ton of standard that can prove that it’s yellow for sure, WHY THE FUCK DOES SOMEONE WANT TO EXPPRESS HIS OPINION THAT IT’S BROWN???

I hate earth. I want to get out of here.

Locked in

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It feels like I was locked in. Inside this little capsule buried deep inside my mind. Why do I hate people so much? Hatred is a strong feeling. Something that you only can truly feel if you know one really well. Same with love. That is the feeling that has been hiding inside me behind the closed doors so long. What is love? Baby don’t hurt me.

Losing focus

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Today I stayed at home. Trying to avoid people. I’m afraid they will turn me into stupid. Already now I feel like I’m losing the focus. I must fully concentrate on my mission. Nothing else helps. I need to leave this place. Forget the people and live for myself and for the space. The endless truth where there is no god but myself.

Who could understand my message

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An organisation called Creative Time is planning to send a message to the future. They have made a cryptic golden disc engraved with meaningless dots and lines. That’s nothing new. Already in Pioneer spacecraft we had a plague with erotic pictures and in Voyager we had a state of the art golden LP that contaid speech of Jimmy Carter and music from Chuck Berry etc.

The new thing in this project is that the have selected “the most important photographs” to be added. If we assume that the alien lifeform that finds it would have eysight as we have, there is a possibitiy to success but I doupt it. Even with photographs it’s extremely difficult to explain anything to someone who does not shere the same cultural background.

Look at the pictures below. These should explain lots of things. For example:

  • How to play an LP-record
  • Hyperfine transition of neutral hydrogen (as a scale)
  • Anatomy of man and woman
  • Relative position of the Sun to the center of the Galaxy and 14 pulsars
  • Solar System
  • Silhouette of the spacecraft (as a scale)
  • Trajectory of the spacecraft
  • Things important to human

Think about it. These messages are not crypted – instead they are designed to be understood. They are supposed to be in the easiest possible form. Yet they are not easy even for human t understand. Some of the best scientists have failed to fully understand the messages althought they knew more or less what they are looking for. I think it’s hopeless that anyone outside of earth could understand this.

The Pioneer plague
Instructions to play the Voyager disc
Creative Time Disc
Creative Time Disc

See the picture below.. is it any more difficult to understand than the ones above?

Hieroglyphe
Hieroglyphe

On the path to eternity

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Today is one day after yesterday. On the path to eternity. I think I was out today, but I did not like it. The dark force of stupidity surrounding me everywhere. A car parked on a crosswalk. I broke one window on it, but did not leave the note. Will the owner now understand, or is he like a dog, that will not learn if you punish him too late. Maybe the dog does not understand the punishment as such, but just learns to avoid the consequences. Maybe people are doing the same. I hate them. Going around as a mass and bragging about their individuality. Praising god and not understanding that everything comes from inside. Not listening to themselves. Being too afraid.
I’m shy – but not afraid.

Gravity

 

 

“It might be difficult to understand that at the moment of Big Bang things are moving ad speed of the light, but actually it’s quite easy when you try to imagine the immense power of that moment.”

“Everyone has heard that time is not linear, but it’s not easy to understand what it means. Timespace or “the black matter” is just like air. It’s there but we do not really see it. A balloon that is more lightweight than air is raising higher. The heavier hellium balloon is raising slower thatn the one with hydrogen. Same goes with time. Heavier objects move slower through time than the lighter ones”

Man on the sky

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I have been waiting with this post. All the news and social media was so full of “Fearless Felix” that I felt thaqt I should not comment it.

Anyhow the event was so Important to me that I need to say something. You know, I did not see the moon landing and I will probably also miss the Mars landing. So this might be as good as it gets. To sit some hours by the screen and to listen how they go through their checklists. “Felix would you give me the presure inside, would you give me the pressure outside” etc. Wonderful.

Another aspect is the precence of Red Bull as sponsor. There has bee a lot of critic about how this company can risk a person’s life for a publicity stunt.

It was not just a publicity stunt. This kind of experimenting was earlier funded by governments but after the cold war they simply stopped doing things.

It’s important that private companies will fill this void. SpaceX is replacing the shuttle missions with private rockets. Mars one is planning ro send person to mars with private money and many other companies are funding space tourism.

Maybe someone also would like to pay my trip. Red Bull do you hear me?

Streetlamps

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I just love the way how the streetlamps are swinging in the wind. Independently, beautifully. You know the ones that are hung on wires over the street. I just love that restless, but yet so peaceful motion. I have been away for months. Somewhere deep inside my head. On the edge of the space and universum. Looking for the deepest secrets, but not even finding myself. I haven’t been eating, but still I’m as fat as always. Been sleeping under my bed listening to the cars passing by. Seeing strange dreams about fights and battles. The struggle of man. Misery. In the end there was a big dark biomechanical vehicle. Like a one that could be designed by H.R. Giger. It’s big cannon targeted towards my house. A dark man stepping out and bright light turning on.. and then nothing.

Worst Case Scenarios

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It’s funny how this whole thing is twisting my mind. I promised to myself that I would not think this too much. I should live normally and then just do it, when it’s the time. Still I’m noticing how differently I’m thinking about some things, like water. Yesterday I actually enjoyed getting a little wet when walking along the rainy streets. In park I stopped for a moment to look at the water pond and how beautifully light is reflecting from the surface. Later on the only water I will be seeing or drinking is my own pee.

I’m also continuously going through all kind of worst-case scenarios. It might be useful since that way I can be better prepared. Still there are just too many factors that I can not control. I’m seeing nightmares about things that can go wrong. Last night I saw over and over again the same dream, where some kind of leakage was causing fire and explosion. I’m not sure if I should too much think about this, since I’m pretty sure I will not be able to prevent such things anyhow.

The truth

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Today I spent some time trying to refine my new theory of everything. That will be a simple thery that combines quantum theory with gravitation. Actually I also will try to explain what gravitation is.

it’s difficult to explain because people can not easily understand things outside the three dimensonal world.

Gravity is a force that is equivalent to the object’s distance from 0-level in a x-dimensonal space. I will explain better later. As a hint I can tell that it’s in relation to 1/c.