Monthly Archives: December 2013

Something..

I’ve loved a lot. Subjects have not been many, but love has never completely disappeared from my life. Sometimes, it just changes form , or is hidden so deep into the depths of the heart that its existence will be forgotten.

I’ve done a lot of things in my life , and I loved them at the time. Now that times and situations and hobbies have changed, have left me longing for those things even if they really are more valuable as memories. I have a lot of dreams. The things that I have not yet done, but I think I would love it when I get there.

I want my partner to be something that is appropriate amound similar and different than I am. Almost opposite personalities but the same spirit in thoughts. Such has an insatiable interest to breath in the spirit of the world and learn to understand it better. Someone who wants to create something fantastic even if at the moment they are too shy or poor or busy to implement it. Someone who lives in the moment, but occasionally reaching for their toes to feel the ground.

I am really pleased to endeavor to where I am now but still look forward to sometimes move to other areas. Maybe with the right woman would I dwell in house by the sea or in the countryside. Perhaps strangely decorated town house. One which from the outside seems different than what the inside would expect.

I want to achieve something. I want to realize my dreams. Even in small scale. I want to produce more dreams and realize them in ways great and small. I would sometimes want to get someone to take advantage of the information I gathered. I would like to do something that makes people feel good.

I want to be remembered being a weird contradictive person whose intentions were unclear at first but the complex thoughts at the end revealed their true beauty. I want to be remembered for creating ideas all of which were rejected but still I saved them and carried out for my own sake so that those who did not understand at the time could later rejoice.

I would be jealous if someone would tell me their life story as I tell my own. To realize the dreams even if they were just droplets in the ocean of normal hard working life. Ofcourse I would not tell them about tedious passages in work and everyday life. I do not know if I’ve done anything to make others jeleaous but I feel that I am more proud of my doings than others.

The whole life is one big adventure. I’ve seen a lot and I could name the places that are yet to be visited and adventures that are still not done but the greatest of these is probably a family. I had to consider this when one of my girlfriends told me she’d never want a family or children . In this regard, I needed to leave my thoughts asidebut yes, I would like to experience it – the “boring” family life. It is the beginning of life -long adventure.

I would like to do something to help mankind. I dream of a project that if successful, would reduce obesity and improve the quality of life for people everywhere. I’m not worried about the fact that time is not yet ready for its implementation. I would like to give people the guidelines to help them. Actually it is sufficient when one asks what they want and then tell it back to them.

My personality also has disadvantages. I become easily frustrated and angry at people who do not understand all my crazy thoughts. Frequently I experience a number of other notches in thought and that the people do not keep up with me and begin to argue but the truth is that sometimes I get stuck in my own thoughts and I refuse to accept the lifeline that others try to throw.

My finest childhood memories are probably associated to a family activity weekends. Trips with my parents and my grandparents. Picnic in a natural setting. I have started to hike again . I did not know why but perhaps because it takes me back to those memories. Maybe someday I can get my own family to take such a trip.

The importance of friends and family is something that can easily be forgotten. It is hard to tell important people how important they really are. It seems that it would be dubious to say something since they already know it. Certainly they know, but maybe it still should be told out loud. I often say that the phrase ” Why don’t you ever tell me that you love me” is redundant because if there is love – they should know it without saying. Maybe I’ve been wrong. People doubt their own feelings. Maybe they should from time to time to remind you that they are right.

Strange how useless things I’m afraid of. I’m afraid for not being understood – even if on the other hand I am proud to say that I think differently than the others. I am afraid for getting no as an answer. I am talkative and social type , but sometimes the worst thing in the world seems to be smiling and to introducemyself to new people and ask “What is your name ?”

“It was a day of changeĀ  for everyone
It was a day of big surprise
When they told us that the world will change
That the change would open our eyes
I thought I’m not so interested
I thought that all so wrong
After the smoke had cleared away
And the bitter taste was strong
To cover that sweet bitterness
I don’t know where or why
Found you and looked for happines
But you just made me cry
::
Your name was like a young wine
You had been there all the time
I needed you to fix my mistake
I didn’t know what it would take
::
You were there at the roman times
Saw emperors claim their throne
You brought the tears in their eyes
Made them to stay home
You ended up in land of France
They made you form of art
Learned to free your burning heart
Thought that it would be smart
::
Your name was like a sweet wine
You had been there all the time
I needed you to fix my mistake
I didn’t know what it would take
::
After all the pain I had with you
I still didn’t get enough
I’ll be always coming back to you
When the times are really tough”

All you need is god!

Forever has church tried to fight against popular culture that is poisoning the minds of people. they have tried to invent ways to make people listen to gospels and hymns instead of the destructive forces of rock and pop. Althought church and science do not agree on many things, now it seems like maths can solve this problem once and for all.

I have seen a text in some church saying “God is love”. I believe it is from bible (1 John, chapters 4:8 and 4:16) What I have learned from maths is that such an equation works both ways. God = Love and Love = God should mean the same thing. That means that by substituting Love with God or the other way around the meaning should remain the same. Since love is a very common subject in song lyrics it’s easy to try some examples and see how awckward they become.

All you need is god (The Beatles)
God, God, God. God, God, God. God, God, God.

There’s nothing you can do that can’t be done. Nothing you can sing that can’t be sung. Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game. It’s easy.

Nothing you can make that can’t be made. No one you can save that can’t be saved. Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time. It’s easy.

All you need is God. All you need is God. All you need is God, God. God is all you need.

All you need is God. All you need is God. All you need is God, God. God is all you need.

Nothing you can know that isn’t known. Nothing you can see that isn’t shown. Nowhere you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be. It’s easy.

All you need is God. All you need is God. All you need is God, God. God is all you need.

All you need is God (all together, now!) All you need is God. (everybody!) All you need is God, God. God is all you need (God is all you need).

Yee-hai! Oh yeah! She Gods you, yeah yeah yeah. She Gods you, yeah yeah yeah.

God is in the air (Tom Jones)
God Is In The Air
God is in the air everywhere I look around
God is in the air every sight and every sound
And I don’t know if I’m being foolish
I don’t know if I’m being wise
But it’s something that I must believe in
And it’s there when I look in your eyes.
God is in the air, in the whisper of the trees,
God is in the air in the thunder of the sea,
And I don’t know if I’m just dreaming,
I don’t know if I feel safe,
But it’s something that I must believe in
And it’s there when I call out your name.
God is in the air, God is in the air, oh, oh, oh, oh, uh,
Uh, uh, uh.
God is in the air, in the rising of the sun,
God is in the air, when the day is nearly done,
And I don’t know if you are illusion,
Don’t know if I see truth,
But you are something that I must believe in,
And you are there when I reach out for you.
God is in the air everywhere I look around
God is in the air every sight and every sound
And I don’t know if I’m being foolish
I don’t know if I’m being wise
But it’s something that I must believe in
And it’s there when I look in your eyes.
God is in the air, God is in the air, oh, oh, oh, oh, uh,
Uh, uh, uh.

Too much God will kil you (Queen)
I’m just the pieces of the man I used to be Too many bitter tears are raining down on me I’m far away from home And I’ve been facing this alone For much too long Oh, I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me About growing up and what a struggle it would be In my tangled state of mind I’ve been looking back to find Where I went wrong

Too much God will kill you If you can’t make up your mind Torn between the God And the God you leave behind You’re headed for disaster ‘Cos you never read the signs Too much God will kill you – every time

I’m just the shadow of the man I used to be And it seems like there’s no way out of this for me I used to bring you sunshine Now all I ever do is bring you down Ooh, how would it be if you were standing in my shoes Can’t you see that it’s impossible to choose No there’s no making sense of it Every way I go I’m bound to lose Oh yeah

Too much God will kill you Just as sure as none at all It’ll drain the power that’s in you Make you plead and scream and crawl And the pain will make you crazy You’re the victim of your crime Too much God will kill you – every time

Yes, too much God will kill you It’ll make your life a lie Yes, too much God will kill you And you won’t understand why You’d give your life, you’d sell your soul But here it comes again Too much God will kill you In the end In the end

God kills (Freddie Mercury)
God don’t give no compensation
God don’t pay no bills
God don’t give no indication
God just won’t stand still

God kills
Drills you through your heart
God kills
Scars you from the start

It’s just a living pastime
Ruining your heart line
Stays for a lifetime
Won’t let you go

‘Cause God, God
God won’t leave you alone

God won’t take no reservations
God is no square deal
Hey, God don’t give no justification
It strikes like cold steel

God kills
Drills you through your heart
God kills
Scars you from the start

It’s just a living pastime
Burning your lifeline
Gives you a hard time
Won’t let you go

‘Cause God, God
God won’t leave you alone

Hey, God can play with your emotions
Open invitation to your heart
Hey, God kills, play with your emotions
Open invitation to your heart

God kills, hey, hey
God kills
God kills, kills, kills, kills

God can play with your emotions
Open invitation

God kills
Hey, drills you through your heart
God kills
Scars you from the start

It’s just a living pastime
Ruining your heart line
Won’t let you go

God kills
Hey, drills you through your heart
God kills
Tears you right apart

It won’t let go
It won’t let go
God kills, yeah

I want to know what god is (Foreigner)
I gotta take a little time A little time to think things over I better read between the lines In case I need it when I’m older Aaaah woah-ah-aah

Now this mountain I must climb Feels like a world upon my shoulders And through the clouds I see God shine It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there’s been heartache and pain I don’t know if I can face it again Can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far To change this lonely life

I wanna know what God is I want you to show me I wanna feel what God is I know you can show me Aaaah woah-oh-ooh

I’m gonna take a little time A little time to look around me, oooh ooh-ooh ooh-ooh oooh I’ve got nowhere left to hide It looks like God has finally found me

In my life there’s been heartache and pain I don’t know if I can face it again I can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far To change this lonely life

I wanna know what God is I want you to show me I wanna feel what God is I know you can show me I wanna know what God is I want you to show me And I wanna feel, I want to feel what God is And I know, I know you can show me

Let’s talk about God (I wanna know what God is) the God that you feel inside (I want you to show me) I’m feeling so much God (I wanna feel what God is) no, you just cannot hide (I know you can show me) yeah, woah-oh-ooh I wanna know what God is, let’s talk about God (I want you to show me) I wanna feel it too (I wanna feel what God is) I wanna feel it too And I know, and I know, I know you can show me Show me what is real, woah (woah), yeah I know (I wanna know what God is) hey I wanna know what God (I want you to show me), I wanna know, I wanna know, want know (I wanna feel what God is), hey I wanna feel, God I know you can show me, yeah