Today I stayed at home. Trying to avoid people. I’m afraid they will turn me into stupid. Already now I feel like I’m losing the focus. I must fully concentrate on my mission. Nothing else helps. I need to leave this place. Forget the people and live for myself and for the space. The endless truth where there is no god but myself.
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Who could understand my message
An organisation called Creative Time is planning to send a message to the future. They have made a cryptic golden disc engraved with meaningless dots and lines. That’s nothing new. Already in Pioneer spacecraft we had a plague with erotic pictures and in Voyager we had a state of the art golden LP that contaid speech of Jimmy Carter and music from Chuck Berry etc.
The new thing in this project is that the have selected “the most important photographs” to be added. If we assume that the alien lifeform that finds it would have eysight as we have, there is a possibitiy to success but I doupt it. Even with photographs it’s extremely difficult to explain anything to someone who does not shere the same cultural background.
Look at the pictures below. These should explain lots of things. For example:
- How to play an LP-record
- Hyperfine transition of neutral hydrogen (as a scale)
- Anatomy of man and woman
- Relative position of the Sun to the center of the Galaxy and 14 pulsars
- Solar System
- Silhouette of the spacecraft (as a scale)
- Trajectory of the spacecraft
- Things important to human
Think about it. These messages are not crypted – instead they are designed to be understood. They are supposed to be in the easiest possible form. Yet they are not easy even for human t understand. Some of the best scientists have failed to fully understand the messages althought they knew more or less what they are looking for. I think it’s hopeless that anyone outside of earth could understand this.
See the picture below.. is it any more difficult to understand than the ones above?
On the path to eternity
Today is one day after yesterday. On the path to eternity. I think I was out today, but I did not like it. The dark force of stupidity surrounding me everywhere. A car parked on a crosswalk. I broke one window on it, but did not leave the note. Will the owner now understand, or is he like a dog, that will not learn if you punish him too late. Maybe the dog does not understand the punishment as such, but just learns to avoid the consequences. Maybe people are doing the same. I hate them. Going around as a mass and bragging about their individuality. Praising god and not understanding that everything comes from inside. Not listening to themselves. Being too afraid.
I’m shy – but not afraid.
Gravity
“It might be difficult to understand that at the moment of Big Bang things are moving ad speed of the light, but actually it’s quite easy when you try to imagine the immense power of that moment.”
“Everyone has heard that time is not linear, but it’s not easy to understand what it means. Timespace or “the black matter” is just like air. It’s there but we do not really see it. A balloon that is more lightweight than air is raising higher. The heavier hellium balloon is raising slower thatn the one with hydrogen. Same goes with time. Heavier objects move slower through time than the lighter ones”
Man on the sky
I have been waiting with this post. All the news and social media was so full of “Fearless Felix” that I felt thaqt I should not comment it.
Anyhow the event was so Important to me that I need to say something. You know, I did not see the moon landing and I will probably also miss the Mars landing. So this might be as good as it gets. To sit some hours by the screen and to listen how they go through their checklists. “Felix would you give me the presure inside, would you give me the pressure outside” etc. Wonderful.
Another aspect is the precence of Red Bull as sponsor. There has bee a lot of critic about how this company can risk a person’s life for a publicity stunt.
It was not just a publicity stunt. This kind of experimenting was earlier funded by governments but after the cold war they simply stopped doing things.
It’s important that private companies will fill this void. SpaceX is replacing the shuttle missions with private rockets. Mars one is planning ro send person to mars with private money and many other companies are funding space tourism.
Maybe someone also would like to pay my trip. Red Bull do you hear me?
Streetlamps
I just love the way how the streetlamps are swinging in the wind. Independently, beautifully. You know the ones that are hung on wires over the street. I just love that restless, but yet so peaceful motion. I have been away for months. Somewhere deep inside my head. On the edge of the space and universum. Looking for the deepest secrets, but not even finding myself. I haven’t been eating, but still I’m as fat as always. Been sleeping under my bed listening to the cars passing by. Seeing strange dreams about fights and battles. The struggle of man. Misery. In the end there was a big dark biomechanical vehicle. Like a one that could be designed by H.R. Giger. It’s big cannon targeted towards my house. A dark man stepping out and bright light turning on.. and then nothing.
Worst Case Scenarios
It’s funny how this whole thing is twisting my mind. I promised to myself that I would not think this too much. I should live normally and then just do it, when it’s the time. Still I’m noticing how differently I’m thinking about some things, like water. Yesterday I actually enjoyed getting a little wet when walking along the rainy streets. In park I stopped for a moment to look at the water pond and how beautifully light is reflecting from the surface. Later on the only water I will be seeing or drinking is my own pee.
I’m also continuously going through all kind of worst-case scenarios. It might be useful since that way I can be better prepared. Still there are just too many factors that I can not control. I’m seeing nightmares about things that can go wrong. Last night I saw over and over again the same dream, where some kind of leakage was causing fire and explosion. I’m not sure if I should too much think about this, since I’m pretty sure I will not be able to prevent such things anyhow.
The truth
Today I spent some time trying to refine my new theory of everything. That will be a simple thery that combines quantum theory with gravitation. Actually I also will try to explain what gravitation is.
it’s difficult to explain because people can not easily understand things outside the three dimensonal world.
Gravity is a force that is equivalent to the object’s distance from 0-level in a x-dimensonal space. I will explain better later. As a hint I can tell that it’s in relation to 1/c.
Moscow calling
Obviously my Internet-connection will not be very good on my trip. Actually there is nothing planned, but I’m sure they will connect me when I ask them to. Around Mars orbit, the delay to earth will already be about 20 minutes and it’s getting much worse after that. It should not be big issue. My first experiences about online discussions were at BBS-era. I was using my 2400 bps modem to upload the stuff I got from Internet. Thanks to Z-moden protocol (or something) I was able to chat with SysOp while uploading. Strange discussions about life, death, religion, UFO’s etc. I miss those times.
I am free
I’m walking alone in this land of darkness. Dark faces staring at me from the distance. No place to go or to hide. I start running away. I keep running until my shoes have been worn off. I keep running on the red burning surface of this damned world. Then I take one big leap and I rise to the sky. Then I feel free. I feel the cooling breeze on my face. People below seem so small. I feel pity for them. I am free.